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[24 Jul 2008|04:27pm]
I've always been told that it's not good to run away from you problems. I understand that isn't the solution to every problem, and it's not going to just take it all away. However, I think it was just the solution to this problem. After Gramps started getting sick, I noticed my main focus was drinking. It was partly because I was upset, but partly because I knew that this was something too enjoyed. It was something that allowed me to let go of all the hurt and the upset. And lets face it, I'm probably one of the funniest drunk guys ever. I mean, not to toot my own horn or anything, but it's true.

Well, as the time continued to pass, my craving for the alcohol got a little more than I could handle. I started drinking more and more excessively. Which I thought wasn't anything big, well I didn't really think much at all. I was to busy blacking out, and thinking about the next place I'd get my hands on liquor. Which clearly was not the right way to do things. Then he ended up passing away, it wasn't something I wasn't aware of, but it wasn't something I was ready to let go of so soon. Our time had been precious. I was his favorite grandson, and we shared the common bond, of birthdays. As well, as being the manly-men we are. Those being his exact words. He was always a wise man, I mean yeah he too had his issues with drinking, but it was his thing. He was old and hell if I was old and becoming decrepited you better believe, I'd live it up, and drink myself right under the god damn table.

Well that's when it hit me, I wasn't even getting hang-overs anymore. I would just get up in the morning, and start drinking. My head didn't hurt, and my body didn't hurt. I didn't feel nauseous. I felt shitfaced all over again. It was great. I loved it, or so I thought I did. It was masking the pain that was really under everything. Which was the fact that I'd lost him. I'd lost the one thing, that always made sense in my head. That was him. He was the guy that I told everything too. He was my best friend, my role model. It wasn't until the yacht party that I realized what a good thing I have in front of me. I have a girlfriend, who loves me. She noticed my horrible drinking habit. She stopped me that night, and took me into her arms, and asked me to come back to her. I know I shouldn't have even put her in that position, but it was her that woke me up. She was the one pulling me back to reality.

That's when I turned to Josh too. We talked a little after the party, and he noticed that my drinking was out of control. I mean poor guy seemed to have a few issues of his own, but at the same time. I think it was for the better that he recognized mine. We talked the day after, and decided that it was time for both of us to get the hell out of this place for a bit. We decided a road trip was in order. And we did just that. We peaced out, and headed fishing. I'll admit we got fucking obliterated the first night. After that, we both decided that it was a good idea for us to stay sober for a while. See if we really can live with out alcohol. Me more so than him. I mean lets face it, he wasn't the one drinking every hour of ever day. I'm doing this for me. I'm doing this for the love I have for Abby, and the fact that I can afford to lose her. She's my life. I love her. I mean you can call me sap if you want, but it's still something that's true. So over all, I think I've learned a few valuable lessons, and here's to being sober for a week so far. Not a drop of alcohol in this guy's system!
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[29 Jun 2008|07:41pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

When I was little, I'd go over to his house. We'd sit around, I grab a cold one, and he'd grab one too. Okay so maybe mine was a cold root beer, but a guy can pretend. We'd open up those bad boys, and throw em back. We'd sit out on his old porch and watch the people go by. Lookin' at me, he'd say. "Yaaa know, Jackers, when you get to be my age, you'll know what the real meanin' of life is." I never knew what he meant by that, but I used to always reply with the same reply, "Gramps, I know what life means it means livin'." I just remember that laugh. He always laughed, that deep rough laugh.

Our birthday! He said it was the best day ever. He said He'd gotten the best present on that day, in 1988. He said it was me, only because I was his only grandson, I think. Regardless, we always spent the day together. We'd hang out, check out the ladies, drink a little root beer, and just have a 'Mans' day. That's what he called it. I remember when I turned 18, he took me out and brought me to a little exotic club, if you will. I know going with your Gramps doesn't seem like a lot of fun, but with him, he was my best friend. It was awesome. It wasn't like a nudie bar, or anything. It was just like a topless bar, that I could get into. He order root beer with me, cause obviously I wasn't old enough, and I'm still not. He promised on my 21st he'd buy me my first beer, legally.

At Christmas time, he'd come over to the house, and kick Mom out of the kitchen. Said it was a man's job on that holiday to prepare the meals. That was until he set the fire alarm off, about six times trying to boil water. But it was okay, because he was Gramps and he could do anything. He'd make sure to have a cold one in hand, at the end of it, he said he deserved it. Our Christmas ham always sometimes tasted a little like beer. He said it was the glaze, it just had a different kind of taste, but in reality he added his own flavors. We knew it, we just chose to keep it to ourselves.

The guy was a real class act, My Gramps. Although he wasn't a push over, and knew how to keep my ass in check. He was the greatest person, I'd ever met. I'll never forget the life lesson he taught me, and how proud of me he was, for being the man I'm becoming. So as his days ended, I just felt the need to make this tribute to him.

Hear that Gramps, I love you. Rest In Peace.

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[16 Jun 2008|08:51pm]
OMG! You have to see this! )
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[12 Jun 2008|12:22am]
Well everyone's posting pictures, I've got one.


Oh.. Baby.. I wanna get witcha. )
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[10 May 2008|10:28pm]
Plowin' these fields in the hot summer sun
Over by the gate lordy here she comes
With a basket full of chicken and a big cold jug of sweet tea
I make a little room and she climbs on up
Open up a throttle and stir a little dust
Just look at her face she ain't a foolin' me


Parties, Parties, Parties. That is the life of Jackson Anderson. I don't think I've really studied for any of my finals. All I know is that I've been with my lovers. That all include the following; Abby, Josh, and Jordyn. Wow, with out you guys, I'd be lost. Although, Abby is going to have to come kidnap me sooner than later. This hand thing just isn't working out for me, and truth be told is, Josh isn't cutting it theses days. Sorry, Baby. You just can't keep with me, Old Man.

She thinks my tractor's sexy
It really turns her on
She's always starin' at me
While I'm chuggin' along
She likes the way it's pullin' while we're tillin' up the land
She's even kind of crazy 'bout my farmer's tan
She's the only one who really understands what gets me
She thinks my tractor's sexy


Abby and I had a talk, although it was more via journals than anything. It was really kinda weird, to be discussing what we discussed over journals. I feel like the things I still need to say, and have already said need to be sad to her face once more. She deserves the world, and I want to give it too her. So Abby, if you're reading this, which I hope at some point you are. I hope that you'll join me in a get-a-way soon. I would really love it, if we could. I've got a few places in mind, but I need to know if you'd be willing to go away with me. So, I guess just tell me yes or no?

We ride back and forth 'til we run out of light
Take it to the barn put it up for the night
Climb up in the loft sit and talk with the radio on
She said she's got a dream and I asked what it is
She wants a little farm and a yard full of kids
One more teeny weeny ride before take her home


Jordyn, I miss you! Although I just saw you. It's because you fucking went away. You bitch. Yeah that was me trying to be an over dramatic girl just like most of the women around here. Sorry, ladies, the truth hurts. No hurting the Jax's Jewels, I don't think Abby would like that too much. So I hear there is supposed to be a party again soon.. Anyone up for the non-black token black guy? I really could use a good time, and well some booze. I need my gay-man lover too. Oh yeah and Josh if you find some um funky shit in your bed. Abby and I WERE NOT there. I swear.

Peace, Love, and Beer. Anyone wanna chill, find me at JitteryJax
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[06 May 2008|08:40pm]
If I were black, I would definitely be the the token black guy.


Truth is, i need some good ol' jordy and abby lovin'... at the same time?
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[01 Feb 2008|04:42pm]
Alright rumor has it there is going to be a superbowl party. However, you can't have a superbowl party with out well, ME! AND BEER! A nice cold one, damn I love that shit. Anyone seen my faggot roommate, his name is Josh Ryan, and he's trying to get with that SMOKIN' HOTT girl, Lana? Yeah Lana, he's not worth your time, and truth is, he has a small pee-pee. I don't know, if you want a real man, you know where to find me...


Other than that... Nothing is happening. Kthnx.
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[14 Jan 2008|12:58pm]
Jackson Anderson. )
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